Without a Voice in Your Head?
It happened to me for the first time the day before lockdown.
I'd been meditating for two years and that morning, almost by accident, I stopped the voice in my head.
No more inner chatter, no more constant judgment, no more anxious rumination. Silence.
I was stunned.
It had surely happened to me before but this was the first time I noticed it—and that it lasted. I could maintain this silence.
I spent the day wandering the streets, exploring this new way of experiencing things.
So it's possible to interact with the world without a little voice judging everything? It's possible to look at an object without hearing "I like it or I don't"? To choose the next direction without verbal deliberation? To make a decision without the verdict of an inner judgment?
Exploring further, I understood that verbal thought wasn't the source of action. It's not what "thinks out loud (in your head) to make a decision." Decisions are made elsewhere. It only comments.
And it's perfectly possible (desirable?) to live without this commentary.