Should I Force Myself?
No note today.
I had too much to do this morning and didn't find the time.
Should I write it this afternoon?
Not really in the mood. Other things to do.
Should I force myself?
You know what I think about that.
Then I thought about it and realized there are actually two reasons to force yourself:
- Inner reasons Because you secretly want to, because you find it fun.
- Outer reasons So you don't disappoint people.
And since I was clearly doing this for outer reasons (now that I have readers, I don't want to let them down), I reached the following conclusion:
No note today.
Every now and then, that's how it'll be.
And as often happens, once I gave myself permission not to do it...
The desire came back.
I found it funny that this inner/outer obligation idea ended up illustrated by today's note itself.
So now I'm writing for inner reasons. With joy.
That's often how I get through the things that bore me:
When I feel resistance, I don't force myself.
Then at some point, momentum arrives.
The task becomes easy, the result much better.
Momentum that would never have come if I had forced myself in the first place.